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BillyMc

Super Active Member
Mar 25, 2018
2,486
South Carolina
My parents introduced me to camping as far back as I can remember. There are so many things that I am thankful for and my parents are up there on that list. We laid Dad to rest on my birthday in 2017 after he fought the good fight nearly 20 years past when the doctors said the end was coming. Two battles with cancer, two open heart surgeries, at least two strokes, and multiple back injuries take a toll on a person. Early in 2017 they found the cancer was back again, when ask about scheduling treatment Dad said there isn't going to be any. I held my Dad's arm as he took his last breath. I thought that was the hardest thing I would ever do, I was wrong! Shortly later I had to wake Mom and tell her, holding her as she cried ripped my heart out. January 3 my older brother called me at work about 7:00am, he works 2nd shift and is never up that early so I knew it wasn't good when I saw his name on my phone. Mom had just past. For the past year she still missed Dad, but she was happy and even went camping with my older brother October 2019. Today we laid her to rest. She finally no longer misses Dad, but we will miss them both until our time here is done.
 

neighbormike

Super Active Member
Gold Supporting Member
Oct 6, 2012
4,093
WI
I am very sorry for your loss. Hopefully you can find some comfort knowing your parents are back together and no longer in pain.
 

nineoaks2004

Every meal is a picnic and every Day is a holiday
Oct 15, 2006
8,241
Dukes, Fl
Sorry for your losses, Losing a family member is always a hard thing, but know in they are no longer in pain and are paving the way for you to eventually join them is something to consider.
At age 77 I know that my expiration date is coming up eventually and I will see my parents and children that has passed before me and I do not really dwell on the thoughts of my passing as I have (and still intend) had a great run while here..
 

davekro

Super Active Member
Aug 30, 2019
767
SF Bay Area, CA
I am very sorry for your loss of your mom, still so close. Loosing loved ones so very close brings such a sadness. In 2017, that you were there with your dad was such a gift to you both. Sending a prayer of peacefullness, love and appreciation for the love that your mom & dad gifted to you and the rest of your family.

I lost a very dear friend and mentor seven days prior on 12/27. Even though he had been suffering and in decline from his battle with cancer, it was still a shock to hear he passed. I think of how fortunate I was to have him in my life. I was asked to say something about Chuck at our Sunday service. I spoke the day after hearing of his passing. The first day it did not feel real. But when I spoke about our dear friend's passing, I was taken by surprise that I choked up and had tears running down my face and had to stop and breath several times. I guess speaking it to the community of his many friends made it real for me. I take heart for the blessing that his wife and his children were with him when he passed. I can only hope to have that much love around me when I pass. Mourning is an individual process, and we can have glimpses of joy when we remember the love and bonds we shared, and have deep appreciation for them in our lives. They will always remain in our hearts as we remember their love and laughter. In that way, they will always be with us. Thank you for sharing with the community here. We are all a little more alive and connected because you did.
Namasté
 

Sweetpea

Active Member
Mar 31, 2021
219
St. Paul, Minnesota
Wow! This is difficult. While packing and prepping for our trip this morning I got clobbered by a flood of memories and emotions! The fond memories are welcome, but I can live without this punched in the chest and choked up feeling!
I know what you mean, I was at my mom's bedside, and I asked her a question, I was too shocked by her answer, I asked her if there was anything she wanted to say, and she said, no, do you? And I that was 26 years ago. I don't know exactly what she meant by that, but it haunts me. Was I a bad daughter? If so, how bad could I have been? Geez, I was 5 of 6 children. I'm happily married, have 2 sons, one moved back due to job loss, the younger one said that he thinks we're great parents, their both great sons. Stuff like what she said, wakes me up at night.
 

BillyMc

Super Active Member
Mar 25, 2018
2,486
South Carolina
I was too shocked by her answer, I asked her if there was anything she wanted to say, and she said, no, do you? And I that was 26 years ago. I don't know exactly what she meant by that, but it haunts me. Was I a bad daughter? If so, how bad could I have been?
Don't do that! The past is the past and you can't change it. DW does that, I have to remind her there is know point in wondering what someone meant or what they are thinking. Your questions "Was I a bad daughter? If so, how bad could I have been?" tell me NO you weren't. If you were you would be the one that knows it.
 

Fish N Farm

Active Member
Aug 4, 2020
586
Pearland Tx
Yes Billy, this is difficult and you are blessed that your folks took you camping. My dad spent most of my child hood years working all the time. I don't hold that against him. He turned 17 in 1929 the year the great depression started. If you think about when we were in HS wanting new shoes, clothes, car, money to take girls out. They never had to worry about that. The only thing they had to worry about is are we going to eat tonight. When you think your folks were rough on you think about how their life was. I think most of them did the best they knew how. Yes it is a hard loss you feel like you are left all alone at times.
 

Sweetpea

Active Member
Mar 31, 2021
219
St. Paul, Minnesota
Don't do that! The past is the past and you can't change it. DW does that, I have to remind her there is know point in wondering what someone meant or what they are thinking. Your questions "Was I a bad daughter? If so, how bad could I have been?" tell me NO you weren't. If you were you would be the one that knows it.
I feel stupid that I even posted that. Sorry I did. It's just one of those dumb things you do when you think too much. Thank you for your words. No, I wasn't a bad daughter, a normal kid, and teenager. Thanks again.
 

BillyMc

Super Active Member
Mar 25, 2018
2,486
South Carolina
I feel stupid that I even posted that. Sorry I did. It's just one of those dumb things you do when you think too much. Thank you for your words. No, I wasn't a bad daughter, a normal kid, and teenager. Thanks again.
We all second guess, I do. DW does it a lot, looking back is one thing, but I don't want her beating herself up over stuff that she can't change and had no control over then. Don't feel stupid and don't be sorry for something that cause no harm. Without your comment this conversation wouldn't have happened. Life is a series of decisions from first to last breath, don't waste the next breath questioning the last breath.
 

Sweetpea

Active Member
Mar 31, 2021
219
St. Paul, Minnesota
We all second guess, I do. DW does it a lot, looking back is one thing, but I don't want her beating herself up over stuff that she can't change and had no control over then. Don't feel stupid and don't be sorry for something that cause no harm. Without your comment this conversation wouldn't have happened. Life is a series of decisions from first to last breath, don't waste the next breath questioning the last breath.
Thank you, I've let that bother me since 1995. I think I can let it go now, your kind words helped, really. I appreciate it very much.
 

HappyTraveler

Active Member
Apr 30, 2019
557
New York
Wow! This is difficult. While packing and prepping for our trip this morning I got clobbered by a flood of memories and emotions! The fond memories are welcome, but I can live without this punched in the chest and choked up feeling!
The only thing I have found that time does is make those gut punches less frequent, but still tough when they hit. God bless and cherish the fond memories.
 




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